My lifegroup has been reading the book “Blue Like Jazz”. It’s been a really interesting book and an enjoyable read. This week we discussed the chapter on worship. Don, the author, said something that really jumped out at me. He said, “I think we have two choices in the face of such big beauty: terror or awe. And this is precisely why we attempt to chart God, because we want to be able to predict him, to dissect him, to carry him around in our dog and pony show. We are too proud to feel awe and too fearful to feel terror. We reduce him to math so we don’t fear him, yet the Bible tells us fear is the appropriate response, that it is the beginning of wisdom.” What really struck me, was the part about reducing God to math so that we can predict him as opposed to fear him. I thought about all the times that I have turned God into a math problem, for example…
1. Read the Bible + Prayer = good things will happen to me and I will get what I want
2. Pray + Read the Bible + Don’t mess up = God is happy with me
3. Read my Bible + Don’t mess up + spend all my time at church = I am a better Christian then you.
While, I think all of those things (reading the Bible, prayer, service, etc), are wonderful things and things that we can do to honor God, I don’t think we can boil it down to an equation because God does not work in the confines of our human parameters. In lifegroup we talked about how often, when making a decision, we have felt that God kind of “wrote the answer in the sky”. We all answered, “one time that I can really remember.” Hmm…interesting. I know that all of those women have prayed, read their Bible, and sought the Lord more than just once. I read in a book once that we ask God to tell us when, where, how, and why, and then we will trust him. I think this is true. We want answers. We want God to tell us what to do, when to do it, how to do it, and where to do it. Can we call that trust?? Doesn’t that just reduce God to a magic eight ball. “God should I move to Wisconsin and take a new job”…shake, shake, shake… “all signs point to yes.” God is not that simple! Not to mention that I don’t really think we could call what we have with him a relationship. Can you have a relationship with a magic 8 ball?? The other danger to reducing God to an equation is that we get totally thrown when the equation doesn’t hold up. What happens when we pray, read our Bible, and seek God and something doesn’t turn out right?! We are shaken…”what did I do wrong?!” Well, maybe nothing, I mean maybe you did, but maybe you didn’t. Maybe God is just bigger and more mysterious than that. But seriously, if God really were like a magic 8 ball or a math formula, how fun would life be? Life would not be fun at all! Life, would actually not be worth living. Why learn, grow, change, and take chances if all you had to do was shake a little black ball to know the next step. I could go on, but I feel this is quite long enough. Perhaps Don’s words will strike something in you as well!